The End of Summer

Me on the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris, France

So...it seems Summer is over and I'm on the verge of turning another year older, sigh.  I'm not sure how I feel about turning the big 32...ok yes, I do.  I feel a huge lump in the pit of my stomach that weights me down and makes me a bit queasy.  However, that could be the meal I ate earlier today but I'm pretty sure it's the knowledge of knowing my birthday is in less than 48 hours...ugh.  People keep asking me what I want to do for my birthday and I inform them I would like to curl up in a little ball and die in the corner of the room...hahaha.  But seriously that has crossed my mind as a legitimate birthday activity option; although, I'm not sure my guest would really enjoy such a scene.

32...holy crap, 32!!!!  I would rather not think about my age but I look at pictures of myself and am like dang...I'm really starting to look 32!!! However, there are parts of me that are like 32 is going to be my year.  It's the year the "thing" I've been working for and hoping for is gonna happen.  It's not necessarily the year I'm going to be a mom but hopefully that will come by age 34.  So, instead of being gloom and doom, as this entry began, I'm going to be positive and hopeful for my 32nd year.  I'm trying new things and focusing on doing more service for others.  Hopefully, this Girl Scout internship I applied for will come through and I can gain some good experience there.  I would really like to get into the non-profit world doing fundraising and event planning and this internship would provide me with exactly what I need to network and gain some hands-on experience in the field.

Yes 32, will be my year!! I'll go to the temple with a partner in toe and get myself into the non-profit world of fundraising and event planning!  Yup...sounds like a good year lies ahead of me and I'm ready to make it happen!!!