Ok Crys...this is for you...since you loved Regina, I thought you might like her too and this particular song. I heart it...and since I heart both of you, I figured it was natural match. Hope you enjoy. :)

TAG you're it!

The rules are as follows: List 3 Joys, 3 Fears, 3 Goals, 3 Current Obsessions/Collections, and 3 Random Surprising Facts About Yourself. Tag 5 people at the end of your post by leaving their names.

Three Joys
1. The Gospel
2. Knowing I can be w/ my family in the eternities (& of course see my friends and pets that have passed on)
3. Music

Three Fears
1. Missing my opportunity for eternal companionship
2. Being less than adequate
3. Growing old and looking like it...eek

Three goals
1. Love my body
2. Have financial security
3. Get married in the temple

Three current obsessions/collections
1. Books...I heart books
2. Vitamins...I'm really in to them currently...Omega 3's baby...who knew fish oil could be so good...LOL
3. Music...iTunes...makes way too much money off of me...bummer

Three random surprising facts about me
1. I'm severely insecure...but I'm sure you already knew that...hahaha
2. I love to sing and dance in my room by myself like I"m a rock star...LOL...seriously
3. Uh...I hate my boobs...LOL...but that's not really a surprise

Tag, you're it!
I tag:
1. Austen
2. Nakki
3. Crys
4. MJ
5. V

Freaks & Geeks!

Ahh! So, I love my new job and the people I work with are, on the most part, cool. However, there are those freaks and geeks sprinkled in there and naturally some of them are of the male persuasion. Now, you may be thinking where is she taking this? Well, one of those male freaks and geeks seems to have the impression that he has a chance with me. I know, I know I sound like a total bee-och...but seriously this guy is so NOT cute, he's not even ok...he's just ...eek. Mind you, yes he's a funny individual and very nice but there this thing called chemistry. And there is NO chemistry for me!!!

And in case you're thinking I'm shallow because I don't like or date ugly people that is completely false because I have liked less than beautiful people. Let me just say there was a certain kiwi out there I was super into and he wasn't exactly a GQ model, but his humor and talent won me over. But this guy, he's a gamer and he's a plumper version of George Costanza (Seinfeld) but with the same amount of hair and a huge mole on his face...mo-lay, mo-lay. Seriously he is so the opposite of everything I would ever be in to.

So what is it? Do I have a sign that says FREAKS & GEEKS NEED ONLY APPLY!! Am I hideous and none of you are telling me the truth straight up? Because you know if that were the case for any of you out there, I would tell you...so if this is the case...someone tell me!! I'm not sure what I can do to solve that problem, but I can always save up for plastic surgery and amend it that way...lol. No, but for reals...why can't normal decent looking guys be into me?

I mean, I guess I'm flattered...but he continues to try to ask me out when I've made it clear plenty of times that I'm not interested. The guy is killin' me...and I don't want to be rude but I also don't want to lead him on. I knew I should have never asked him about his cat (yeah he's male and single and has a cat...weird) but I did because I was curious about his cat because I heart cats...not nerds...lol, just kidding. Anyways...freaks and geeks must be my destiny...blah!

thank you nakki

I suffer from having a boring life and thus I don't write much and since I don't have my camera here I can't take random pictures and post them ...my camera is in Utah...sigh...anyways I was reading Nak's blog and figured I too would like to answer this quiz...so here are my answers....


1.How do you feel about Country Music? Don't break my heart, my achey breaky heart...LOL...I love the stuff...but only certain artist...and uh...Billy Ray is not one of them
2.How many curlers do you wear in your hair at night? What is this 1950?
3.What is the last book you read or are reading? Umm...The Host by Stephanie Meyers
4.What 3 movies would you take to a Desert Island (this is of course assuming that you could watch them there)? Hmm...Bridget Jones Diary, About A Boy, and uh...Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire...LOL
5.What 3 TV shows on disc would you take to a Desert Island? Ugly Betty, Greys Anatomy, Grounded for Life
6.Does this quiz stink? If it does I can't smell anything, so maybe it's me???
7.Name your 3 Favorite Fruits. Fuji Apples, Tomatoes, Peaches, Pineapple, I know it said three but since Tomatoes isn't a common one I took the liberty to put four.
8.What is in the Back Seat of your car right now? A volleyball and some magazines in my back seat pockets and a Thomas Guide for California
9.When was the last time you threw up? Gosh...when I was like 23 and I had taken some loratab for my back and it did not settle well with me...so I was hurling the entire evening at my friends grad party at Tacanos...sad...that food is so good and I was throwing it all up :(
10.What is your favorite curse (not cuss) word? Uh...that's a wierd question that I have no answer to
11.Name one thing you are really good at. Hmm...I can sing pretty well
12.Name one thing you are really bad at. Patience
What 3 books would you take to a desert island?My scriptures..The Harry Potter Series and Jane Austen's collection.
13.Name your 3 favorite drinks. H2O, Lemon Dasani, fresh Limeade
14.When you were a kid, how did you get your candy fix? I don't think I was a candy addict so there was no fix needed
15.Name your 3 Favorite Vegetables. Tomatoes, Fresh Swiss Chard, Lemon Cucumbers
16.Which Bear is Best? Nila Bair, DUH
17.What is your favorite Ice Cream Flavor? Cookies and Cream...love that crud...
18.What was the last thing you ate? A hotdog...lol
19.What is the last sporting event you watched? a volleyball match at work
20.What are you doing tomorrow? Going to work...:)
21.Are you free on Saturday night? Chances are good that I'm free...LOL
22.How much liquid can your belly button hold? Dude if you know the answer to this, it's no wonder you don't have plans for Saturday night! LOL
23What is your first thought when you hear "Australia"? I want to go there!
24How many states have you been to? I'm pretty sure all of them but Alaska...
25What is the biggest annoyance in your life right now (besides this quiz)? Bills I hate bills!
26How did you get one of your scars? I was long boarding and my boards tremors got out of control and bucked me off my board and i went flying...it was pretty bloody but I heart the scar!
27What did you learn from Encyclopedia Brown? I don't think anything because I can't recall anything....
28Do you really want to answer 2 more questions? Yeah, no.
Didn't think so!

HULK

I saw it last night. I liked it. I heart Edward Norton even more and Liv Tyler plays demurely sexy smart perfect. LOL. Mind you the movie is no Iron Man but hey it's pretty dang entertaining and that's all that kind of movie is suppose to be. So, I say, go see it...it's worth it.

Clarification

Alrighty, so I was reading over the comments on my last post and I got the impression that some of you thought I was a sappy idealist who was a firm believer in the Beatles mantra, "love is all you need". Well, I need to make it clear that I am not that and if any of you out there know me, you should know this. Love for me, has happened a few times in my life and as of recently I've almost given up on it...but I heard this song and it struck a chord, no pun intended.

Trust me when I say, I know marriage is hard. Sure, it's not from first hand experience but I have seen plenty of couples struggle. Whether it be friends or family, I get that marriage is hard. In fact marriage scares the hell out of me. To commit yourself to another for time and all eternity...that's major! And then to bring children into the mix, whoa...that's way major! But see, that's how I've been viewing marriage as of lately. Major and hard. And where does love play into all of this, hmm...it seems only in the initiation of the practice of marriage. Right?!

Wrong! I know this but sometimes I get bogged down with the negative as opposed to the positive. Love is the positive and I know it can be carried beyond the initiation point of marriage but there are so many examples out there that are completely supportive of my views. And so, to hear such a sweet ballad that praises love for the beauty and strength that holds two people together was enlightening. Cheesy? Yes.

But despite everything, love really does play a huge role in keeping souls connected. No, it's not everything but it definitely helps when your spouse is lazy and won't change your kids diaper. Or when you don't have enough money to make ends meet because your spouse won't grow up and get a decent job. Or when the kids seem to consume every second of your lives and you don't remember why you got married in the first place. Yeah, I think love definitely plays a role but it's not everything. Communication, compromising, empathy, teamwork, faith, understanding, ect...ect. But lets be honest all of these practices or attributes stem from one thing, love. Love enables you to be understanding when your spouse forgets your birthday or anniversary. Love enables you to be okay with all their idiosyncrasies, in fact it might make you love them more for those annoying habits. Love is powerful...it's why our Saviour was willing to atone for our sins and shortcomings and it's why our Father in Heaven was willing to let Him. Love. It's not everything but it sure does make a difference.

And so, because I have plenty of examples in my life that prove that love works and does go beyond the initiation stages of marriage, I have hope that I will find love. Then I can prove to myself and to others what I think is true: love enables you to do a lot of things you didn't think you could, both good and bad. Hopefully, I'll only do good. ;)

I guess what I'm trying to say is, love is hard...to find...to keep...to do. But when you find it and you have it, be grateful because not everyone out there does. And for those who have hope of finding it, don't burst their bubble...I'm sure they're very aware of the realities of it. Nothing in this life that is worth something comes easily, nor stays easily. So, I'll keep my heart door open and continue doing what I can to attain the precious gift of love...and hope for love.

Inside

So, I was listening to my new favorite song, "Lucky" by Jason Mraz featuring Colbie Callait. The song is sweet but not disgustingly so, you know. I just love it and their harmonizing is great. They have two distinct sounds that mesh well together. Anyway, as I was listening to this song last night while writing, I thought of this...

inside

Somewhere back there beyond fear
Behind apathy
Right there...beside heart, lies hope.
I watch it as it struggles.
It flickers...
It fades...
Is it dead?
It flickers...
It fades...
Now I know
Now I see
Somewhere back there beyond fear
Behind apathy
Beside heart, lives hope.

See, I hear this song and I think of these words because it gives me hope that one day I will find someone out there that I can share the same sentiments they sing about. "They don't know how long it takes, waitin' for a love like this." Perhaps, there are some out there that don't know but I'm positive when I finally do find that love...I will appreciate it and be in awe of it everyday. Because lets face it, finding someone you want to love for time and all eternity is a miracle...yeah you're definitely lucky in love!